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These past few weeks have been re-donk-u-lous. This is the longest collective time I've been in Paris. I've changed apartments.. And about to move again on the 29th. That will be the 3rd apartment in less than 2 months...really?!

I keep asking my agency when I'm going to be going back to NY. "Oh taylor, bebe!! Never!!" hehe okay but really! WHEN AM I LEAVING?! I have options until the 21st of December.

I start each day with about 3 castings, usually end up having 5 or 6 or a million. I have confirmed a story for Jalouse, I don't know when it shoots. I'm flying to Portugal on Sunday until Wednesday to do some advertising/catalog. !!!!

I've been really happy here. I've been really happy to be out of NYC. There was a lot I needed to get away from. Its hard being in a city where everything/anything/everyone/anyone reminded me of something, reintroduced feelings I was trying to get rid of. I've also become somewhat anti-internet since leaving the city. There's something liberating of having my business be my business. Keeping myself as separated from the rest of the world that I can't stand to be a part of, anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I miss my FRIENDS very very very very very much. And I would be the happiest if they could all be with me here. I'm quite lonely if I think about it. I dont have friends here. I've been too busy to really socialize. Even if I were in NY right now, I would be too zonked to go out and be social. My ass is out of my apartment around 10a and I get home around 7...

There has been someone that I met and I'm so so so so so grateful that I have. He's kind of amazing. He's American; Brooklyn via Baltimore. (via europe. via etc.) He's so different (read: kind of more mature due to his age) than the rest of the boys I've bothered with. But really, he still has a peen so I mean...he's still a guy. That does and says annoying guy things, but the good is outweighing the bad so far. Except he's leaving Paris for ny tomorrow and then I'm here ALONE. I just hope I'm busy busy busy busy busy busy busy.

I might end up edit-ing this due to the personal/emotional word/feeling bulimia I just had. haha. I have about a billion roles of film to develop. So in due time, due time.

xx
tay